Wednesday, May 31, 2017

30.5.2017

手贱的想要码字,我知道这里不是你会看见的地方
这里最终还是成了我可以自说自话的地方
不会有人看见,不会有人批判,因为荒废了,哈哈
虽然偶尔心里会想要你看到,可是我知道你不知道这里
就这样,时间过得好快
那天的聚餐,让我看到了你的态度
是有点不自然,但是更多的是陌生
是啊,没有什么理由熟悉不是吗
你过渡的很好,放下了
曾经以为你也是舍不得的,可是又怎么样
太多人横在了我们中间,你的父母,我们的朋友
大家都会觉得我傻,不够爱自己,太笨了
可能是因为金牛座吧,固执的无怨无悔 哈哈哈
想要一条路走到黑,可是感情不是可以这样走的路
或许,真的只是差了一个好好道别的机会
就可以让我完全释怀,但是很遗憾,这个机会我不会有
心空了,可是影子还在,果然最可怕的,是习惯啊

Monday, March 27, 2017

我知道你不會看到這裡 這是一篇舊的文 就當我自己做個句點就好
沒想到我和你就這樣結束了  在一起的時光竟然那麼的短暫
曾經的我以為我們沒有可能了 可是沒有想到你竟然開口了
我們就這樣的走到了一起
你知道嗎 當時的我有多開心 多麼的忐忑
我好怕這一切都只是一場夢 可是你告訴我這是現實
當看到花的那一剎那 我的心跳的好快
我第一次收到一束屬於自己的花 我喜歡的人送給我的花
雖然當下的你什麼都沒說 可是你的心意我收到了
一路上回去我們都沒有說什麼 可能我太笨吧
你寫給我的告白很浪漫 我也很開心
你知道嗎 其實從小開始我就很害怕自己重視的人離開我
所以我有這種不安全感

我承認自己不會打理這份感情 給了你太多壓力
有些東西總是想著你知道 想要你做到 忘了說你就是你
如果你愛一個人 妳要愛他的全部 包括缺點和優點
可是我想著要去改變你 希望你能給我我想要的相处模式
我總是以為你不會離開 忘了給你更多的包容 忘了其實你也會累
對不起 讓你接受到一個這麼不一樣的我
或許我忘了 我的生活重心不應該只有你
你有朋友,家人,學業,事業,你的心裡裝了好多好多東西
我不應該在你需要時間冷靜的時候鬧你
或許你覺得你已經跟我說過了好幾遍 可是為什麼不可以給我多一點時間去學習
說到這 或許我也做的不好 總是很急 希望你可以做好 忘了你比我更獨立
其實你需要更多的包容 更多的時間
曾經你說過 很怕我們經不起考驗就分開了
曾經你也說過 你不會輕易的放棄我們
是我做的太過分 讓你累了吧

或許我當時不明白 未必明天 就有以後 這句話
現在說起來這句話那麼的痛 如果當初我不要那麼倔強
是不是我們就不會走到今天這個地步
看著你現在已經波瀾不驚的樣子 或許你已經徹底的放下了我們之間的事
我多麽希望能夠有一個奇蹟改變你的倔強 改變你父母的想法
我多麽希望有多一個機會 讓我好好的重新再讓你認識我一次
我很努力的想跨過去 可是我走不到那個你在的彼岸

對不起 我太過固執 沒有把你說的話聽進去
曾經我很怕 很怕你離開 因為感覺上你的生活真的不差我的存在
感覺到我不被需要 感覺到我好像沒有分量
所以我以為自己只要先離開就不會受傷 可是我走不開啊
我真的沒有想過要放棄我們 因為是我們 我真的很想就這樣好好的走完這一程人生
其實不論前方多麽艱險 只要有你陪著就夠了
在看到信息的那一瞬間 我的整個世界都瓦解了 崩潰了
雖然有一點不好的預感 但是我還是一直期待著我們會一起走下去
我也曾經以為自己很瀟灑 可以說放就放 可是我做不到啊
為什麼你會可以做到那麼堅決 我多麼希望我學得會這個本領

對不起 我生氣時說的狠話都傷到了你
那時我生氣你不和我開口說話 其實只是單純因為我想要你先開口和我說說話
我們已經鬧了兩三天了 好不容易見了面 我只是希望你先開口和我說一句話
哪怕是任何一句話 問問我這幾天好不好 我都行啊
你說過你不會哄人 偏偏我又想被你哄 不會體諒你 是我不對
你明明已經道歉了 我卻不給你台階下 也是我不對

對不起 我給這段感情放了太多負能量 忘了應該帶給你快樂
我不對的是我把我們的感情做比較 其實我只是羨慕 他們都有很多時間相處
我知道你很忙 已經把能夠給我的時間都給我了 是我不好
一段感情出了問題 不是一個人的責任而已 其實大部分的錯都在我身上
是我不夠好所以才會這樣 真的對不起
現在說那麼多都是惘然 已經過去了
你可不可以給我們彼此一個機會重新來過 或許我已經知道答案
可是這個答案我不想接受 卻又被迫接受
或許我們未來什麼都不是了 但是希望你在找到新的人以前
先把我完全隔離出你的世界 我會祝福你 但是我不想親眼見證

Saturday, August 9, 2014

The Divergent Trilogy : #1 Divergent

It has been a long time since I last wrote my blog post in English lol
This post I am going to talk about Divergent, which serves as a movie review and also a book review.

So before I start anything, I need to confess that I am not a keen English novels reader. To be honest I read Chinese novels more, which is my mother tongue and also my favourite language. However I watch English movies more than Chinese movie which maybe because English movies have more choices than the Chinese one? haha
Well, get back to the title: Divergent.
I knew this movie from my besty, who is a huge fan of English novels and she has been anticipated for this trilogy to be made into movies like long long time ago. She watched the movie before I did and told me that the movie was awesome and etc lol (You can read her review on Divergent here, she writes good review =D) I'm unable to catch the movie in the cinema as I was in Matriculation College which is kinda isolated (I know every MOE Matric College does). So I bought the disc about 3 days ago and watched it in my own "cinema" =P

This movie made me totally fallen for this trilogy, not to deny that a big factor is the casts. ♥
Theo James as Four aka Tobias Eaton and Shailene Woodley as Tris aka Beatrice Prior, the male and female main casts of the movie.
Tris and Four on their first met =D
They did some edit to the movie when comparing it to the book. Eric became the one to lead them to the roof of seven stories building instead of Max, Christina is shorter than Tris in the movie while it is the reverse in the book, Natalie (Tris's mother) is actually a Divergent herself in the book while she's just a transfer in the movie, the aptitude test, the fears of Tris and some other more details which you could tell if you read the book and watched the movie.
Four revealing his tattoo to Tris =3
The biggest part that attracted me is the subplot, which is the love story of Four and Tris. I might not be that attracted if I only read the book alone, Theo and Shailene really brought the characters alive in my thought. Their love story goes in a slow pace due to their character. They don't trust people easily as they both hold a dangerous secret themselves. But their feelings to each other grows gradually when they get through the obstacles.
This is just so sweet and romantic ♥
I'm not trying to be lusty or longing for skinships lol but I hope they have more contact just like the book, for example the confining box and the train. Oh and also when Four is drunk and told Tris that she is pretty in the skirt and make-up. =P They just look so awesome when put together as a pair of couple hehe. 

Some characters are missing from the movie like Uriah, Zeke and Max. Uriah is more important than Zeke and Max though. He invites Tris to the initiates ritual in the book but not like in the movie that they went to the ride right after the capture the flag game. The book is picturing many details and the movie can't take all into its account, or the movie might become too long and boring. Contradictory, Jeanie is getting more scenes and playing a more important role than she does in the book.

Tris and Four on the train travelling beyond the fence
Well, the ending of the movie didn't change much, Tris's parents died for protecting her and to save the Abnegation people. Tris and Four managed to escape from the headquarters of Dauntless together with Caleb, Marcus and Peter. Jeanie was injected the serum to wipe the program and stopped the massacre against the Abnegation in the movie while Four did that in the book. So, the movie ends here.

Insurgent is the 2nd book of the trilogy which is in filming process. The estimated time for it to release is 2015 which is next time. I'm kinda looking forward to this movie as the first one already attracted me this much. I've done reading the 1st book, in pdf (I actually downloaded the ebooks of the whole series xD) which is about 200 pages in 3 days time hehe. To be honest that I seldom read English novel and not in this speed lol. This amazed myself too. 

WARNING: BIG spoiler ahead if you haven't read the trilogy. I accidentally spoiled the ending to my besty which made her lost her appetite to read the book (._.) I'm sorry. Because I really love this pair and can't wait to read the books to know the ending (there are 3 books and I'm not a fast reader) I googled for the ending. Actually it's a comment in Youtube that makes me so curious about the ending as it wrote that Tris DIED in Allegiant, the 3rd book of the Trilogy. (._.) And it is actually the real ending. Even Veronica wrote an article to talk about that as many fans object the ending. Seems like the happy-ever-after ending is not Veronica's favourite as she has her own thought on Tris.

Since the trilogy is made into movies, I hope that maybe Veronica can give a happy ending to the movie (as a variation) since she is the co-producer of the movie. This will be a big present for those fans that hope Tris and Four will have a happy ending. In case if they scare that this might mislead those who didn't read the book maybe they can acknowledge it after the movie ends. This can be a win-win situation to both Veronica and the fans =P

This movie is certainly going to be my favourite movie, with Theo and Shailene became my favourite actor and actress. ♥

Monday, June 30, 2014

转眼 · 瞬间

转眼 我从Matrik毕业了
去年的这个月份 我正在适应人生有史以来的第一次宿舍生活
去年的现在 我人在柔佛 吃着食堂的食物 做着功课 睡着宿舍的床
今年的这个月份 我正在家里无所事事游手好闲 ╮(╯▽╰)╭
今年的现在 我人在家里 吃着家里的食物 上着网 睡着家里的床 ♥ 
好幸福 哈哈

有博客的朋友 好像都不约而同的已经把自己的 “毕业感言” 写上来了
只有我 什么都还没写 什么都还没说吧
不知道为什么 就是没有想写东西的感觉 就这样让它过去了
我的博客没有固定的读者 可能也因为我没有固定地发文?
哈哈 随便啦 反正我又不是什么名人 开心就好嘛

当4月30日时 也就是去年的这个日期 朋友们很呱噪
面子书上的状态全部都是关于当年自己的决定 这个怎样 那个怎样的 哈哈
我当时没有赶上潮流 只是默默的看着这些状态刷新我的主页 =P
说实在 问我有没有后悔走上Matrik这条路
我觉得   我没有
因为如果我没有去Matrik 我就不会认识现在的这群朋友
不会有那么不一样的体验 不会对感情有更深的领悟
不会大老远的跑去柔佛 (根本就是反方向的两个地方 =_= )
更不会有现在这个无所事事的假期 =P

跟我同一栋宿舍的朋友们约了要出行 但是最终没有去成 算遗憾吧 =]
看着朋友们到处去玩 我只能说 我也想去啦 (≧﹏≦)
只是时间都配合不来 只有放弃了
感觉可惜 只能叹是有缘无分咯

说起来 有这段回忆 我很感激 =)
感谢上天让我去到那里
感谢在那里 无论什么时候都支持我的人
因为你的支持 让我在异乡里觉得很温暖
感谢在那里 让我觉得沮丧 伤心的人
不为什么 因为你让我变得更坚强 更懂人情世故
感谢在那里 跟我分享秘密 有什么事情都会第一个想到我的人
因为有你 让我觉得原来我也可以在别人心里有重要的地位
感谢上天让我遇见了你 回忆有苦有甜 才更有乐趣

如今和那里的朋友分隔各地 和中学的朋友也分隔各地
距离是一种考验 能够通过的人到底有多少 没有人清楚
天真的希望友情能永久不变 哈哈 希望吧希望

瞬间 一眼万年
昔日的回忆 在脑海里重复播映
往日的欢声笑语 现在只成追忆
转眼 瞬间 欢笑 泪水
过去 回忆 将来 期待
希望我的人生 依然页页精彩 =)